Jen
Wells, USA.
Scleroderma Awareness Month 2018.
Raynaud's, Autoimmune Rare Disease.
Jen Wells, USA |
Name: Jen
Wells
Location: Chandler,
AZ, U.S.A.
Diagnosis:
Limited Scleroderma / CREST Syndrome
Limited Scleroderma / CREST Syndrome
Year of diagnosis: late 2011/2012
Age at diagnosis: 40
Where / who diagnosed you?
Rheumatologist Dr. Paul Cauldron confirmed the
diagnosis
What were your presenting symptoms?
I had most symptoms for two years or more at
time of diagnosis.
These were my symptoms:
Secondary Raynaud’s.
Calcinosis (hardening lumps in fingertips).
Pain, numbness, tingling and loss of feeling in
finger-tips, hands, arms, legs, feet and toes.
Fibromyalgia.
Costochondritis, balance issues, dizziness.
Neuropathy.
Ssevere nausea & vomiting (gastroparesis).
Extreme fatigue, lack of energy, brain fog,
sleep issues (too little).
Muscle, body and joint pain.
Constant colds (always sick).
Stiffness and swollen fingers and toes.
Vitamin D deficiency.
Hypothyroidism.
Rashes, hives, constant itching.
Sjogren’s.
Extreme sun sensitivity/photosensitivity.
How long did it take for you to be diagnosed
after first symptoms?
I had been experiencing symptoms for several
years before my ANA test was done.
My Primary Care Doctor had suspected autoimmune
issues for quite some time but was reluctant to test me. She was concerned I
might lose my job or future job opportunities as I had recently returned to
work and was going through an extremely bad divorce after a 9 year stint as a
stay at home mom.
Her other concern; did I really want to know
what was wrong and what if there was no cure, then what? After constantly going
on and off prednisone for a couple years and being told it was all in my head
by other doctors as my symptoms worsened, I just wanted some answers.
So she ran tests and bloodwork...I still
remember the call and how she sounded as she told me the results and how she
was sorry. Dr. Jennifer McDonald is still my P.C. Physician to this day.
And to her credit she always took my issues
seriously and never doubted my word or
questioned my sanity, and for that I will
always be grateful.
In early 2012 my diagnosis was confirmed, after
a two month wait to see the Rheumatologist, based on a positive ANA, blood work
and presenting symptoms.
That said, my experience with Dr. Cauldron was
demoralizing to say the least. In less than 15 minutes he managed to squash any
hopes I had of understanding or managing my health.
He gave me a quick glance and said yes, I had
CREST but to him I looked fine and as far as he was concerned no further tests
or treatment was needed.
He bluntly said I was wasting his time and to
come back when my fingers turned black (ironically I started having issues with
hypoxia shortly thereafter) because he had real patients to treat and children
who were dying.
To be told that ‘someone who looked as healthy
as I did, had no need for a Rheumatologist, and to just deal with it’ and then
just walk out of the room was devastating.
He never gave me a chance to speak or ask a
single question and I left the room in tears.
As I passed the front desk I asked if I could
see another Rheumatologist and was told due to office policy I would only be
allowed to see the same doctor. I never went back.
A year later, shortly after a successful
Anterior Cervical Spinal Fusion where they drilled and removed calcium from my
neck that had caused severe compression & disc damage, I finally sought
help.
At the request of my doctor's, I found a new
Rheumatologist.
By this time, I had a bad calcium eruption on
my finger and severe swelling & oedema primarily on my left side.
At that point I was put on hydroxychloroquine
and amlodipine and was told to follow up in 8 months. By the end of 2013 I had
yet to have a nailfold capillary test, PFT, 3-d echo, x-rays or any of the
standard tests.
In January of 2015 I was seen by Mayo Clinic in
Scottsdale. My diagnosis was reconfirmed and all the proper tests were done.
At that point I was told to seek a
Rheumatologist in my community as they were currently not taking on new
patients.
I was at a loss as my current Rheum had left to
join the largest practice in Arizona, also the place where I was first
diagnosed.
Not knowing what else to do, I reached out to
the Scleroderma Foundation support group in Phoenix.
How amazing to find others like me, who
understood what I was going through. It was Janice, the current leader of the
group, who sadly, since has passed, who first helped me navigate the muddy
waters that are Scleroderma.
Thank goodness for the Scleroderma Foundation
support group who helped me find my current Rheumatologist, Dr. Joy Schechtman,
for which I am blessed.
2017 reality:
I would say my current reality is learning to
accept this new, ever changing, version of myself. I won’t say it is easy and
it certainly can be frustrating and challenging at times but at the core, I am
still me.
The last six years have been quite a ride and I
could not have done it without the support of my parents, my two teenage boys,
and a handful of very close friends for whom I am grateful.
It took all of us some time to understand and
grasp the intricacies of how life changing this disease truly is but we are
adapting the best we can and continue to learn along the way.
I continue to remind myself that Scleroderma is
only a part of my life, it is not who I am nor will it define me.
If I have learned anything on this journey that
is ‘Scleroderma’, is that, it teaches you empathy. I always thought of myself
as a caring and empathetic person before I became sick, but as a patient you
start to really understand there is more to it than that.
Perhaps I lacked a certain understanding or awareness.
Perhaps I lacked a certain understanding or awareness.
I’m human and like anyone, at times, I can
still be quite selfish. I now understand I have a lot to learn and a long way
to go, but for me, the journey has only just begun.
Everyone has things going on in their lives and just because we may not see it, be it physical or emotional, doesn’t make it any less real.
Everyone has things going on in their lives and just because we may not see it, be it physical or emotional, doesn’t make it any less real.
In my opinion, this is something we should all
try to be a bit more aware of and perhaps take a moment to imagine what it’s
like to walk in another’s shoes.
I can honestly say, without hesitation, that I
truly hate Scleroderma.
It is a mean, cruel and excruciatingly painful
disease. But there is a silver lining to all of this and that is the people, my
sclero brothers and sisters. I get choked up just thinking of the love,
kindness and support we have for each other.
As ugly as Scleroderma can be, the one thing
about this disease that is truly beautiful are the people themselves, and I am
glad to know them.
They inspire me and give me strength to keep
going and above all, they understand that some days are just plain hard and
it’s ok to admit it.
I would never wish this disease on my worst
enemy but I am grateful for the support and strength of those who stand with me
because without you, I would truly be lost.
I currently see my Rheumatologist for office
visits and blood work every six weeks.
I see my other doctors as needed or twice a year for tests, these doctors include:
G.P., Cardiologist, Pulmonologist, Physical therapist, Endocrinologist, Nephrologist and I am currently looking for a new Gastro, Neurologist, Pain Doctor and Dermatologist and Immunologist/Allergist.
I see my other doctors as needed or twice a year for tests, these doctors include:
G.P., Cardiologist, Pulmonologist, Physical therapist, Endocrinologist, Nephrologist and I am currently looking for a new Gastro, Neurologist, Pain Doctor and Dermatologist and Immunologist/Allergist.
2017 issues include:
Occasional calcium eruptions /ulcers, excessive
synovial fluid, R.A.
Secondary Raynaud’s, erosion, bone spurs in my
feet and wrists, swollen and painful joints, myopathy, neuropathy, fibro,
gastroparesis, delayed stomach emptying, hiatal hernia, Meniere’s, hyper/hypo
pigmentation, hypothyroidism, hypokalemia, migraines, stiffness, excessive fatigue.
Atypical trigeminal neuralgia, sleep apnea and
sleep issues, osteoarthritis, spondylosis, tingling and numbness in hands feet
and arms and legs.
Allodynia, flares & inflammation, occasional bouts of depression, and the list goes on and on (as I’m sure I have left out a few things)... and of course the whole brain fog thing.
Allodynia, flares & inflammation, occasional bouts of depression, and the list goes on and on (as I’m sure I have left out a few things)... and of course the whole brain fog thing.
Not all of it is Scleroderma related and a lot
of it you can’t see, but basically, I hurt daily and never know what to expect
from one day to the next.
My issues tend to migrate and love to mix it
up.
One thing for sure, Scleroderma and my other
health issues are never boring. Repeat mantra daily: I may have sclero but it
doesn’t have me.
My current medication regime includes a
mountain of pills, though it is slowly dwindling due to the increasing cost of
medication now that I am on Medicare.
A current frustration in its own right, being
unable to afford the medication I need.
Some days I may take as many as 15 different
medications or more, but I do my best to avoid doing so, unless things are
really bad.
The medications I take daily include:
Pantoprazole.
Hydroxychloroquine.
Nifedipine.
Armor thyroid.
Bupropion.
Leflunomide.
Carvedilol.
Montelukast.
Spironolactone and occasionally
baclofen.
I try my best to stay active, for me this means
using the elliptical machine 5 days a week or more, and water aerobics several
times a week, as well as, walking as often as I can, when I am physically able
to do so.
My current goal is to incorporate more
stretching in my daily routine and add resistance exercises with bands, in
order to have better range of motion and to prevent further loss of muscle and
tissue damage.
I also eat a high protein, low fat and low carb
diet that includes anti-inflammatory foods. I avoid sugar, corn products, foods
in the nightshade family, cruciferous vegetables, soy, dairy and processed
foods.
I also use therapeutic grade essential oils
orally and topically and use a ph alkaline water machine for my water.
What are your 3 biggest current challenges due
to your diagnosis?
Pain management.
Energy levels/fatigue.
Finances.
I am allergic to most narcotic pain medications
which include vicodin and percocet.
I am also extremely sensitive to medication
containing serotonin and the medications used to treat used fibro and
neuropathy such as those in the gabapentin and neurontin family.
I have recently developed a sensitivity to steroids (oral & injectable) so pain management is incredibly difficult.
I have recently developed a sensitivity to steroids (oral & injectable) so pain management is incredibly difficult.
In fact, I have been told by several pain
management specialists that they would just be taking my money and there is
nothing they can do. One doctor even refunded me my co-pay after looking at my
chart.
So, I am now in search of something outside the
box other than biting my cheeks and clenching my fingers and toes constantly.
Fatigue is another big issue for me that seems
to partner frustratingly well with pain.
Now that I am on a Medicare Advantage PPO, and
can no longer afford my major medical medication, my day to day functioning has
once again, become a huge issue.
Humira was life changing and now I find myself once again, in bed constantly. A quick trip to the store or a simple outing will often take me a couple days to recover.
You don’t always realize how much a medication helps, until you are forced to stop taking it.
Humira was life changing and now I find myself once again, in bed constantly. A quick trip to the store or a simple outing will often take me a couple days to recover.
You don’t always realize how much a medication helps, until you are forced to stop taking it.
Keeping up with daily chores and doctor
appointments has once again become extremely difficult.
Things I once took for granted can often take
all day, including a shower.
I mean come on, should you really need a 2 hour nap after a shower? I think not.
And getting dressed should not be an all day event, I’m talking sweats here, not getting glammed up.
I mean come on, should you really need a 2 hour nap after a shower? I think not.
And getting dressed should not be an all day event, I’m talking sweats here, not getting glammed up.
I absolutely despise the fact that my kids
constantly see me exhausted or in bed. Yet if I push myself too hard I may be
in bed for up to a week. I am trying to become better at balancing things but
each day brings its own set of challenges.
Often frustrating beyond belief. All I can do
is hope that things will change and I will somehow be able to get Humira or
another biologic, sooner than later.
Which brings me to my third issue, expenses. As
a single mom with two teenage boys on disability, money is tight. I have
extremely supportive and generous parents but they are getting up there in age
and are exhausting their resources in order to help me with food and
rent.
It breaks my heart but I can honestly say that
without them, I would not have a roof over my head.
My disability is just enough to cover doctor
appointments and the most basic medication expenses, forget food or
housing.
I receive just enough to disqualify me from
receiving any type of state assistance including Medicade, Access or medication
assistance.
When I think about this and the future it truly
frightens me but for now I am grateful to have shared custody with my children,
while I still can.
What are your 3 top tips for living with your
diagnosis?
Living with Scleroderma can certainly be
challenging but I have found these things really help keep me going.
First, remain positive, or as positive as is
possible, as we all have an occasional difficult day or week.
For me, a sense of humor really helps keep the
positive energy flowing, as does laughter. So do your best to find something
daily that brings laughter or a smile to your face.
It sounds silly but it can be anything from a piece of chocolate to a picture of a baby animal.
It sounds silly but it can be anything from a piece of chocolate to a picture of a baby animal.
Anything that brings you joy.
Next, pay it forward. I often find when I feel
my worst it helps to brighten someone else’s day, it’s a win-win situation for
both parties.
A simple smile can go a long way or pay a
stranger a compliment. It doesn’t need to be elaborate just be kind and sincere
in your actions.
Finally, make sure you have a support system in
place.
This can be as simple as a friend who is there
for you, family members, several friends or a support group.
This helps you remain present and will help you
from closing yourself off or shutting the world out.
I would be lost without my best friend and my
sclero sisters.
You know who you are and thank you for dragging
me out into the light when things seem difficult or hopeless.
These are the people who will help you put
things in perspective and make your day
brighter just by being there.
My wishes for the future (as well as now) are:
Continue to share Scleroderma education and
awareness with others.
Never stop talking about this horrible disease.
My dream is that we will one day live in a
sclero free world #SclerodermaFreeWorld.
June 2017.
Huge thanks go to Jen for sharing her scleroderma reality and experience for Scleroderma Awareness Month, and for all that she does for her fellow patients, throughout the year.
We will never view you as being 'too much to handle', Jen.
Wishing you every success with your new treatment plan and regime.
To view my article 'Why Global Collaboration is Important', Click here
All patients included within the global patient profiles campaign, highlight the URGENT need for an investment in medical research, as well as:
ALL being, crucial factors for best practice management and care.
Raynaud's, Click here
June 2017.
2018 UPDATE:
A few months after
my Scleroderma Awareness Month article last year, I was able to go back on
Humira, which was a blessing.
However, I recently qualified
for AHCCCS/ state medical assistance and much to my dismay and a lot of
misinformation, not only have I lost all my doctors, but I have had to stop
Humira again.
I am now starting
all over.
On my most recent
visit with my new GP it was ‘highly suggested’, that I would be better served
with an Internal Medical Doctor due to my complicated health history or as he
put it, “as a patient, you’re a full time job for me... there is just too
much.”
As for finding a new
Rheumatologist, I am still waiting for my records to be transferred and have
been told that, there are no new patient appointments available for several
months out.
I did implore my old
rheumatologist to allow me to be seen as a private patient, as her
office doesn’t take
my new insurance, in order to continue Humira.
However, her office
told me that it is against the law to collect money from a patient on medicade,
and that, they would no longer be able to help me.
I am not quite sure
how this is considered continuity of care, something I was assured I would
receive.
In my experience, it
seems to be nothing more than a buzzword insurance companies throw around.
Current SYMPTOMS:
Raynaud’s,
dizziness/vertigo, reflux, nausea/vomiting, diarrhoea, migraines, bad bone friction
rubs (ankles/wrists), neuropathy(legs), loss of feeling in feet, muscle fatigue
and weakness body. Wide, feet and hand contractures.
Extreme, extreme
fatigue, coupled with insomnia. Sciatica (right side), hands, feet, arms and
legs and left side of face tingling, burning and numbness, loss of feeling in fingers
and toes, mild calcinosis (it’s been worse in the past) blurred vision,
worsened hearing loss(frustrating), figure nodule, unknown growth on my left
side above chest below clavicle, difficulty swallowing, depression, mood
swings, anxiety, extreme weight fluctuations, pain from compression and
osteoarthritis in lumbar region, cervical neck and back pain (prior anterior
cervical spinal fusion), worsening tachycardia, heart related seizures, heat
and cold intolerance, hives, increasing food intolerances and allergies (too
many to list), bone pain, brain fog, all over, body - wide pain......
My symptom list
reminds me of the poem called ‘Sick’, by Shel Silverstein:
“I cannot go to
school today,” said little Peggy Anne McKay. “I have the measles and the mumps,
a gash, a rash and purple bumps.” - except for the ending, that is ... No going
out to play for this girl.
Current Medications:
For at least the
next 30 days I will continue to take leflunomide, hydroxychloroquine, spironolactone,
armour thyroid, protonics, montelukast, and immodium, Benadryl and sumatriptan
as needed.
I currently have a medical
marijuana card as it is legal in Arizona. I use a topical pain cream made
locally that offers some relief and the occasional gummy, in the hope of being
able to laugh through the pain.
In addition to this,
I have started going to a holistic doctor and her students at a naturopathic
school in Tempe in the hope of finding relief through functional medicine, diet
and lifestyle changes.
I have also begun
Japanese acupuncture in a community acupuncture setting which helps make tri-weekly
treatment more affordable.
RESEARCH 2018:
Have you taken part
in a research trial?
Yes
Several years ago I
participated in a drug trial for secondary Raynaud’s.
I took two pills 2x
a day for 3 months.
Every 2 weeks they
checked my nail bed capillaries for vascular changes and improvement.
At the end of the
trial I was told I had not been given the placebo and was given a prescription
to continue the medication.
At that time, I
chose not to continue the medication, as no improvement or changes had been
noted, and the medication was not covered under my insurance, and was very
costly.
Did you have to
travel far?
I travelled an hour
each way 2 x a month for 3 months.
Would you advise
others to take part in research trials?
YES!
I would absolutely
advise others to take part in research studies if at all possible.
If there is a chance
it could help others, change the course of this disease for the better or find
a cure for Scleroderma, then sign me up.
Unfortunately, I
have a lot of overlap that has kept me from qualifying for a large majority of
research studies available but I am always hopeful and willing should the
opportunity arise.
In Between Medical Appointments:
I find my energy
levels so low that the majority of the time in between doctor
appointments I am
either sleeping, resting or driving my kids to school and activities.
On my good days I
try to get out and do water aerobics.
Huge thanks go to Jen for sharing her scleroderma reality and experience for Scleroderma Awareness Month, and for all that she does for her fellow patients, throughout the year.
We will never view you as being 'too much to handle', Jen.
Wishing you every success with your new treatment plan and regime.
To read my articles:
Current Unmet Clinical Needs 2018, Click here
CALCINOSIS, Click here
GUM RECESSION, TOOTH
EXTRACTS, Click here
SOFT TISSUE, ULCERS,
Click here
TELANGIECTASIA,
Click here
SCLERODACTYL HANDS,
Click here
INVISIBLE
DISABILITY, Click here
RAYNAUD'S, Click here
GASTROINTESTINAL,
Click here
Prof Chris Denton presenting a plaque to Kevin's daughter, Michelle, and wife, Debby, for funds raised in Kevin's memory for medical research at the Unit. Thanks to Michelle for the photo. |
'Scleroderma
Awareness Month 2018: Medical Research Fundraising, RIP Kevin East', Click here
Global Patient
Profiles Campaign Index, Click here
Importance of Medical
Research and Awareness Raising, Click here
NIHR Video: 'My
Experience of Clinical Trials', Click here
Week 3, 2017 Patient
Profiles: Medical areas of current interest, Click here
Week 2, 2017 Patient
Profiles: Progress in Medical Research, Click here
Week 1, 2017 Patient
Profiles: Introduction to multi complex disease, Click here
Why I chose global
Patient Profiles for my 2017 / 2018 Campaign, Click here
2017 Global Patient
Profiles Campaign Introduction, Click here
'Being your own
awareness advocate', Click here
Scleroderma Awareness
Month Flashback 2017, Click here
Scleroderma Awareness
Month Flashback 2016, Click here
My 2016 Campaign, A
to Z: Scleroderma and Raynaud's diagnosis, Click here
2016 Campaign Video, Click
here
March 2018 Autoimmune
Disease Awareness Month, Click here
World Scleroderma Day
2017, 29th June, Click here
World Scleroderma Day
2016, 29th June. Origins of the date, Click here
World Scleroderma Day
2015, 29th June.
James Carver, myself, Prof Chris Denton |
I had the pleasure of being a presenter and part of
the European co-hort who gave a presentation at the European Parliament,
Brussels, in honour of World Scleroderma Day 2015.
I am immensely grateful to James Carver MEP for organizing this event in memory of his late wife Carmen, who sadly passed from Scleroderma.
I am immensely grateful to James Carver MEP for organizing this event in memory of his late wife Carmen, who sadly passed from Scleroderma.
To view the presentation, Click here
To view my article 'Why Global Collaboration is Important', Click here
All patients included within the global patient profiles campaign, highlight the URGENT need for an investment in medical research, as well as:
Early Diagnosis
Expert Specialist Centres
Access to innovative medicines
ALL being, crucial factors for best practice management and care.
To read my articles:
Raynaud's, Click here
This year, I am celebrating 20 years of being a
patient at the Scleroderma Unit, The Royal Free Hospital - a world leading expert specialist, research centre.
Sept 2017 |
Prof Chris Denton and I, Sept 2017 |
I am eternally grateful to the global scleroderma
trail blazers Dame Prof Black and Prof Chris Denton, whose commitment and
dedication to unlocking the scleroderma enigma, is nothing other than,
superhuman.
I am truly humbled and inspired by their work
ethic. I am wholly appreciative for Prof Denton’s continued medical expertise
and support, especially during my barrister qualifying years, 1997 -
2004.
1st March 2004, I qualified as a self
employed practising barrister. Further to having been told in 1997, by my
diagnosing doctor, that I was looking at a 15month prognosis.
I very much hope to utilise my professional skills
and qualifications along with my patient experience, to help achieve the
#SclerodermaFreeWorld dream, hoping to improve understanding and best practice,
in the meantime. Read more, here
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Last Update: June 2018
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